ATTIKA

Set it free, let it go day.

Will keep this post brief and let the pictures do the talking afterwards. Decided to head over to Aloha Loyang beach today @ pasir ris, of course i had to bring lil brother along too since nobody’s around. There was a reason why i wanted to head over to the beach. Hmm no special occasion or anything. I told myself that i need to do something about it and not coop up at home all day so….. to the beach i went.

Today is labelled ‘Set it free, let it go’ day. I cant keep going back to the same old point i was. I need to move forward and create something beautiful out of this. Something so beautiful that i will never decide to look/think back. Even though i still hadn’t found the answers to my questions, i have to let it go and insya’Allah God would show me the truth.

Basically, today was sweet & simple alhamdulillah. And oh! I even bumped to my beloved cousin on the mrt! So nice to see her for that short moment after months! Okay time to let the pictures do the talking!

                    

                   

                   

                   

                   

                                 

                                

                                

                                

                                

                                

                               

                               

                               

                               

                         

                        

                        

DONE! 

Will end this post with a let go quote….

“The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward.”

Love,

A.

HAPPY MAMA’S DAY!!!

                                        My beloved mama :)

Mama and stepdad~

Alala lil bro so sweet~

Next~ MAKAN TIMEEEEE!!!

I swear this red velvet cupcake is the best! 

Nature’s beauty, so peaceful~

Crazy lil brudda as always~

                                       Will start this post by wishing….

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY TO ALL THE BEAUTIFUL MAMA’S OUT THERE! TODAY IS YOUR DAY TO SHINE BRIGHT LIKE A DIAMOND!

Not gonna say much but let the pictures do the talking instead so as all of you know today is a day dedicated to our beloved mama all around the world. For those who doesn’t have a mum cause of certain reasons, no worries.. They will always be watching over you :)

Dine in at Al-azhar, packed as ever over there but the food… WAH SHIOK! Especially the red velvet cupcake! Today was a pleasant sunday, alhamdulillah. It was nice to just eat out with the family and spend quality time with them since we rarely do. Glad mama loved our surprise, it was the least we could do for her.

Well to sum things up, i love you mama. You are one of the best gifts in my life and may we meet again in the next life, insya’Allah :) If you are no longer in this world, hopefully i will be able to follow your footsteps in becoming a strong woman. I’m glad to be your daughter even after everything our family has went through in the past. Mama, you are the best!

To all you beautiful people out there, cherish your mama and take care of her well just like how she has looked after you ever since you were a little kid. Treasure her before her time in this world is up and all your apologies would be in vain. Love your mama okay! <3

Love,

A.

A tuesday with my doraemon~

            

Alhamdulillah for a productive tuesday. Started off our day by attending hadith class and head to lunch @ Pastamania right after.

Had my all-time favourite, aglio olio! Today we learn the importance of prayer and how much it can benefit us in the Hereafter since prayer is the first thing which will be asked during the day of judgement, truly an eye opener for both of us and insya’Allah we will both seek to improve ourselves. Amin.

Like i said to my dora, one wrong mistake may lead us to Jahannam (hell) while one right mistake may lead us to Jannah (heaven) That thought is truly frightening to both of us because all the secrets lies with Allah and we are the ones role-playing it at our best capability.Other than that, i love today. It was simple and its nice to just let it all out to your one true friend, yay!

To summarise, today was a pleasant day, alhamdulillah. And finally that someone’s heart feel much calmer after knowing ‘something’ that’s been bothering her all these while. Syukur alhamdulillah for tuesday and may wednesday be a wonderful day as well, insya’Allah.

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh~

Love,

A.

Why am i still feeling this way…

                     

                                         Hello everyone!

So finally the weekends are here once again. I have such a heavy heart to talk about this topic but i told myself, ‘Attika, everything that you gonna post here has already happened and you can’t take it back so why not just post and share’ God, i have no idea why the feeling is still here.. it should be long gone by now. I know i am stronger than this. Every single day, i told myself brighter days would shine and i should think positive throughout the whole 24 hours cause no use thinking negative anyway.

I absolutely have no idea how long i can last thinking positive, staying strong, pretending that everything is okay and a miracle would happen in my life or at least something adventurous/interesting. But honestly, no. In fact, every single day i’m feeling so drained out and in addition, i don’t have much freedom since i have a little brother to take care of so i spend most of my days home. That’s what makes my mind blunt and the reason why i think too much and that’s bad. I told myself that i need to get a hobby when im home but what? All the activities i love are outdoors like cycling or sports. I wanna be happy too just like other pretty ordinary girls who gets a chance every single morning to greet life with a big smile on their face looking forward to seize the day. I don’t wanna feel like a zombie, having to drag myself out of bed telling myself ‘I will make something beautiful out of today’ when the reality of it is that nothing beautiful comes out of it.

At times i wonder, what is blocking all the wonderful things from happening? Is it cause of my sins? I have no idea. Only Allah does. So actually about the feeling, its about my feelings towards this one dude. A dude i fell in love with for 3 years but yeah of course, we aren’t in speaking terms no more. I always doa to Allah to remove this feeling if we are not meant to be and if we are, let the feeling stay in my heart. Truth is, i don’t understand or maybe i just don’t wanna accept the fact that the reason the feeling is still there is cause Allah still plants it. Hmm its okay i should stop blogging about it since im not sure either whether there are still people reading or not. But to whoever who still does, may Allah bless you always.

Love,

A.